Tired of feeling alone

[stephen lambert]

my story is that im 37 i have a great wife and great kids but still feel alone inside at times even scared
i know i need to have god more in my life, i try and read the bible faithfully. i just feel like the door will not open for me or im just afraid to walk in not sure which one.I know he is their for me it just seems like i dont understand whats going on.I hate being unhappy i dont know if i have ever been truly happy or ever will be and that is sad. for me to feel like this is not fair to my family they should have some one who is happy.I get so down on myself when i fail at things or when things dont go right I know god is the only perfect one so i dont know why i continue tocome down myself so hard.I hate that i smoke cigeretts i feel im letting my god and my family down.Im going to continue to search for god but i just grow tired of continueing to have to fight every day just to wake up and start the day.
anybody feel the same way or any ideas on helping me fell free to post

[maggie hancox]

Do you know how wonderful it is to read someones struggle and KNOW that there IS an answer?

Don't be discouraged my freind, not in the least.

What you are going through right now, everyone struggles with at some point, and for most of us MANY TIMES OVER!
The light at the end of the tunnel you are looking for is none other then THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD.
You see, you do not yet have faith in your Father or his son, as you do not yet fully understand his true and wonderful nature!
When you DO understand his nature you will no longer struggle this way, you will in fact be full of joy to overflowing!
And THAT I can say with complete assurance.
THAT is why it is called the GOOD NEWS my freind.

I understand your struggle, you are wrestling with the aspects of yourself that you do not like, that YOU do not accept about yourself..so you think to yourself that no one else is going to accept (or should) accept you, and most importantly of all YOU ARE MEASURING YOUR FATHER WITH YOUR OWN MEASURING STICK! so you are lumping judgement against yourself in belief that your Father judges you even more...after all...if you don't meet your own standards, how will you ever meet God your Fathers standards. Am I hitting the nail any where near the head here???

Don't you know that you aught be praising his name even louder at this point?
Why??? Because he wants a close and personal relationship with YOU that's why and he is showing you right now that is what he wants.
How???
Because it is HE who is calling you, HE who is shining a light on the state of your heart, so that you can see what it is that stands between you and him. He knows sin is the only thing that stands between you and him and he loves you so much that he doesn't want anything between you.
It is HE who is giving you the desire to have him near you, you miss him don't you, you feel alone don't you?
AND it is HE who is in control, HE who will take all that stands between you and him away and heal your heart.

PRAISE BE TO OUR FATHER because he is revealing to you that he WANTS TO BE CLOSE TO YOU!!

First you need to grapple with WHAT sin really is, it's an eye opener and a lot different to what you think I'll bet!.

You know evidence of sin is all that the 10 commandements tell us we aught not do right?
But what is REAL sin??

REAL sin is unbeleif in the true nature of our Father, YOUR LOVING father.

John 16 v 9 "The world's sin is unbelief in me."

I really have so much to say on the subject of exactly what you are going through, and would love to share with you all the secrets that my Father has shown me on the matter.

If you would like you can email me and I will share even more with you.

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I will also add you as a freind on here, feel free to browse my page for encouragement.

Don't lose heart my freind, the answer is there and it is in the wonderful nature of your Lord and Saviour, your Father whom loves you so dearly.

[Jason]

you say you have a family that is great. This is something that i once thought about since i dont have chilldren of my own if it is that you mean your wife and children when you say family.I thought about having a wife and children and then wonderd what i would do if i realy truly did and it came to me that even if i feal depressed down gloomy etc i would want them to be happy. I then thought that even though my pain is about me there joy can be about me as well why cant i just go and be with them and understand that they are and that they are gods creation and that that is something of great joy to experience and that i could live in the joy of there exsistance in my life and let there joy become my joy and then one day our joy.this reveals to me god truly does cherish fellowship and it is an awsome gift. Lokk at your family and wonder and live for them and you.

[stephen lambert]

Thank you everybody i have received some very good words of wisdom. My mood is much better today i really enjoy this web site some times i just need to vent i know that sounds selfish but it really helps.also the little stories and bible readings people have sent me really helps THANK YOU VERY MUCH.i hope to meet more of you on this site.

[Neil Robinson]

Dear Stephen, it was interesting to read your mail as I have exactly the same feelings and its all a bit of a mystery as to why. Waking each morning and feeling so down. My wife tells me its jusy me and that its time I pulled myself togther. Not easy, like you I guess we all would if it were that simple. Having found God recently though I feel a light at the end of the tunnel and pray that you might find the same. In many ways I feel that had I not fallen into this depression I would not have woken up to God and having done so now I feel I have the greatest friend you can imagine and feel sorry for anyone not having him in their lives.
I wish you all the best and will add you to my prayers daily.
Very best wishes
Neil

[Gayla]

Hi Stephen,
I have submitted your name and your post to a prayer group that I have known and been in contact with for a long time, if you don't mind? They will be praying for you, and I will be believeing with you for a breakthruough. If you wake up soon, and a much better mood, just give thanks to God, and continue daily, to the best of your ability. I believe you will soon see a change for the better.

Many blessings... in Christ.

Gayla S.

[Claire]

Wise words again Donna
Remember there is a time where we will all be Ex Depressants now thats cool
Praise the Lord

[Dennis Culpepper]

Hey Stephen, I feel the same way...hopeless. I do know it is not a sin to be depressed and God loves us unconditional and always will. He can carry our burdens if we give them to Him and will act on His timeline and not ours. I think my big problem is I cannot forgive myself but God loves us just the same. Think of the future being with God. I will pray for you and I need you to pray for me as well. God bless.