Why did God make me this way ?

[Tee Victors]

I have a problem I can not control .... my emotions. They betray me at all the wrong times & sometimes it really makes me angry. I cry mostly over tv shows now. I can even cry over a cartoon !! The other night the Dancing with the Stars was on & they had a special tribute to the Lion King & they came out in costumes of animals & I started to cry. It was very beautiful & pleasing to watch, yet I was in tears . . . drenching tears with my face turned inside out. This is not an isolated incident. I cry a lot over war movies too. I can even cry over some commercials !! When something is really sad, I can nearly go through an entire box of tissue. Yet, I can sit stone faced over the news when someone really gets hurt or killed & it doesn't even phase me it seems. I would like to know why I do this. What's wrong with my spirit ?

[Greg, TheNET Coordinator]

Tee,

It might be helpful to talk to a professional Christian counselor about this and see what may be behind it. It seems you may be a very sensitive, artistic person and touched by beauty in some way. There may be nothing at all wrong with this and just the way that God made you. On the other hand, you may have experienced some sort of drama in your life that you have repressed. It might be worth exploring to go back and try to remember your earliest childhood memories in an attempt to see where this sadness may originate.

Do you struggle with depression?

Just some suggestions.

[betty j. maye]

Lord i come asking you to give Tee complete peace and understanding, put a hedge of protection around her and take any confusion from her, bless her in a special way. thank you Father. AMEN.

[journeymanhd]

Dear Tee. I find your story very interesting. I was just the opposite. I was a very "tough" person. Certainly not easily brought to tears. However, I have found that since I have been born again God has spoken to me and told me to be the person he meant me to be. When I accepted Jesus in my life as savior and the source of my salvation a great weight was lifted from my shoulders. I cry at war movies....I cry when people I do not know are hurt......I cry over the sin in this world....I cry over the beauty of a little child or a new born baby. I cry because I am happy! I cry with my wonderful wife when she is sad. God has shown me the beauty of accepting myself for who I am. I know that shedding tears may not be "masculine" to some in this world. But, God has shown me that he loves me and thats all I need. I have nothing to prove to anyone of this "world" and God knows me for who I am. So....tears can be very cleansing. God's gifts are sometimes not what we expect. However his gifts are always what we need. Before you say,Whats wrong with me? I think you should say,"Maybe I'm just the way God wants me to be?" Just a thought. Remember seek God first in all things.

[Tee Victors]

Gee you had me in tears reading your reply. Thank you for taking the time to reply. I too, cry when new borns enter this world. I did my clinicals in a hospital & rotated through maternity & got to see 2 children come into the world & I cried uncontrollably for both, I could not function for having my eyes full of tears. That was not only embarrassing but not useful ! It prevented me from doing anything. The other night I was reading on Yahoo Answers in the religious section where a 13 year old girl was expressing her atheism & putting down the Christian faith & it was so thick I sat there & cried for her. If she had been sitting in front of me I would not even attempt to try to convince her otherwise because she was not just repeating something she heard, you could tell by the way it was written that she believed she was atheist & it was so sad I couldn't help but just cry about it. I was & still am so helpless. I feel like there's no hope for some of these kids. I know God has His reasons for the way things happen but I can't understand why He lets kids get so led so far off the path that they are so lost. BTW, I pulled up the video on YouTube about the African jungle musical thingy on dancing with the stars again, you know the one I cried over ? Well I showed it to my Mom & wouldn't you know it . . . I had to cry again. I don't know what happened it 's like my body has a mind of it own. But I will continue to pray about it & try to understand. My Brother is a minister & my best friend is a minister. They tell me I just got a good heart. I just don't know.