May you please help me?!?

[Angel]

I KNOW THIS POST IS VERY LONG BUT COULD YOU PLEASE READ ON BECAUSE YOUR ADVICE MEANS ALOT TO ME?

I'm a born again believer but lately I've been suffering from alot of things that have caused me to question my existence. I've always been mature for my age which causes me not to fit in with others but I'm glad that I'm that way because its brought me closer to God. About a year ago, I stopped being friends with one of my friends because she betrayed me. I told her something in the hope that she wouldn't tell anyone but she did and this made it even worse for me considering that I have trust issues. It was hard for me to forgive her and I had so much hatred against her that I couldn't stand to see her face but I prayed and prayed that God would help me forgive her because I didn't know where that attitude was coming from because usually I'm a forgiving person. After a few months we became friends again and I apologised for all the bad things I said to her during the time when we weren't talking and she accepted my apology. I'm going to call her A.

A few months before I stopped talking to A, I became good friends with B and C. I noticed the way they talked badly of other people and then acted nice to those same people when they talk to them. I've always felt left out around them because their world practically revolves around B and my world revolves around God. C's father is a pastor but the way she acts is very questionable because as a pastor's daughter you would expect her to be encouraging others to follow Christ but she's the most horrible one of them both. I classed them as best friends even though they had always made me feel unwanted and isolated. All of a sudden they turned on me and they started blaming me for something for something they did and they are hating me for no valid reason because I never did anything against them yet they always left me out. It makes me really upset because I've always been there for them when they needed my help and I always looked out for them yet they've always used me. If I try to explain the situation to anybody, its either they don't care or they don't understand. Everybody wants me to listen to them all the time but when I need something they would turn a deaf ear towards me. What I've explained above is nothing compared to what this situation is actually like in real life. I'm sorry if I sound selfish or bitter or anything else but this is something I've always wanted to let out but there is never anyone who is willing to listen. I've tried to forgive them but it's hard because they are constantly trying to turn people against me and they speak of me when I'm near them, thinking that I wouldn't hear them. It seems like the whole world is turning against me. I want to forgive them and I'm hoping to get new friends but I don't ever want to be friends with those people again because they've caused me so much pain in my life to a point that I thought that my existence was pointless. I just wish somebody could understand where I'm coming from because I'm sick of this heart ache.

God created me to be more than a conqueror but it seems like I'm a footstool for all my enemies. Everyone that surrounds me is worldly therefore our interests are very different. I know alot of Christians here have gone through similar situations so could you please give me words of encouragement to help me carry on even though I'm surrounded by those who wait for my downfall? Thank you...

[KEVIN SCOTT]

I WANT TO SAY I THANK GOD FOR U TO BE ABLE TO BE ON THIS SITE TO WRITE YOUR STORY. SECONDLY IM GOING TO PRAY FOR YOUR SITUATION. ALSO WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH IS A GOOD THING. THAT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT APART OF THIS WORLD SO THE WORLD WILL REJECT U. I KNOW BECAUSE I WENT THROUGH SOMETHING SIMILAR TO YOURS. I BEEN REJECTED BY THIS WORLD BUT THANKS BE TO CHRIST THAT IM ABLE TO FIND PEACE AND HAPPINESS IN MY LIFE. READ (JOHN 15:18-19) AND LISTEN TO SEE WHAT JESUS SAYS ABOUT THIS. SO CONTINUE TO BE STRONG AND CONTINUE TO GROW IN GOD AND STOP LOOKING FOR MAN APROVAL AND LOOK FOR GOD AND MAY THE LORD BLESS U,

[Angel]

Thank you very much for caring and replying, it means alot to me. Your message has really uplifted me and helped me to see things for what they are. Thank you. May God bless you and shower you with blessings... :)

[Donna Layne]

Great answer Kevin, keep up the good work. U R an angel.

[journeymanhd]

Hello Angel. Yes thank God for God loves us all no matter what. First,let me say that being human being we all have these "feelings" of the world turning against us. Being Christians means we believe that because of God's love for us and the fact that he gave his only Son Jesus to live and die and be ressurected for our sins we are free of condemnation. In fact many of this world will turn against us. We are asked to love our enemies by our Lord. We do not have to surround ourselves with their evilness or their evil ways. You must have boundaries set up for yourself to protect you from these situations. Continue to pray for your "friends" but do not let them close to you to infect you with their ways. You may have to look for other friends. It may take a long time to find them or maybe a short time. Go to God with this problem. Humans are by nature sinful. That is why we need God in our lives. Trust God because only God is perfect. Friends, even the best of friends can be prone to weakness and committing sins. Keep God first in your life. If you do that he will make sure all good things come to you. Will there be tough times? Sure, absolutely there will be. The difference is you are in a relationship with the God of all creation. Praise him for all that happens to you. Trials can and will bring us closer to our Lord. You are an amazing Child of God. May God's love shine on you always!

[Angel]

You gave me a lot to think about. Thank you for replying Tom! :)

[Scribe D'Nucov]

I think if you will take time to become personally accountable to God and submit yourself to him, you will find that these other people must be accountable for their actions before God.

How can you do that? Take time to seperate from these people. Set yourself alone with God. Read the entire book of proverbs at least twice. Then pray and ask God to reveal your own responsibility in the difficulties you face with your relationships. Ask God to show you how you have contributed to these conflicts and ask God to guide you.

If you humble yourself to God, pray and ask Him to reveal your own sin, He will heal your own soul and enable you to live a life worthy of your calling. If you will take account of your own responsiblities and put aside the feelings of betrayal by forgiving them and asking forgiveness. If you will ask God to bring a true humility to your own soul, you will have fewer conflicts and you will find that God directs you in paths of righteousness, instead of into conflict and hostility. You may find that you can both forgive, and be forgiven, by those with whom you have conflict.

Remember what Jesus said: "first take the log out of your own eye before you attempt to see the splinter in your brother's eye".

[Angel]

Thank you for replying. I need to spend some time reflecting on my wrong doings instead of other people's because sometimes it's hard to accept that you are not perfect especially when people hurt you but I'll keep praying and reading the word of God and I'll look up to the Lord for guidance instead of trying to solve situations that are too hard for me to handle. Thank you again :)

[Scribe D'Nucov]

Bless your enemies. Bless and do not curse.

[Angel]

I'm trying to let go and forgive but it's hard. But with God's help, I will get there soon...

[Angel]

Ha ha! It's okay. Thank you for replying. The people who are believers that I'm friends with have too much attitude and they're so moody. One minute they're treating me like I'm their best friend and the next they're treating me like a stranger but I'm not going to let that upset me because I know the devil will use people around me to bring me down but I know that every bad thing that happens has a good outcome if you are a child of God :) Thank you for your reply. God bless you all

[Garry Menelaws]

All that I can say is what is said in the bible and that is, " forgive others of there trespasses, and you shall be forgiven."

[Amanda]

Angel, when I was reading your blog I can totally relate to what you are saying and feel what you are feeling because I been there and still there and what I came to realize is that we need to change the people we keep around us. We need to put people in our lives that's headed in the same path as us. And it says it in the bible, sorry I can not tell you the chapter or verse but it is true. A true friend listens and encourage, a true friend is fast to apologies and slow to argue. If they can not do that then they are not true friends. Let God be your friend and when you are where He wants you to be anything you wish for He can grant that for you, can anybody else say the same? May God bless you and guide you through your storm. Amen.