help and healing

[jim]

i and my wife of +30 years have a good marriage. but i need help.
over 30 years ago while in the navy i met a highshool girl at a church. i fell in love with her. i wanted to be more than friends, she just getting out of school just wanted to have fun and enjoy life.

i really think that she did love and care for me. but i also knew and could sense that the lord was leading us both in different directions. we still are very good friends. my problem is i for over 30 am having trouble getting her out of my heart and mind. the lord lead a freat christian woman in to my life, we have three grown kids with grandkids. i have always been faithful to her and would not do anything to harm out marriage. but i feel that the old girlfriend that i have been trying to get peace about and forget is making feel like i am living a lie in my marriage. i met her mother awhile back and was told the she is devorcied.

my first thought was " wow, i got a chance" i really feel bad about that.

i have ask god to give me peace and to let go of here memory. been on my face for over 30 years and still no peace or answer. i am prayed out and beaten down.

this needs to go and i want it to go. my prayer to god is to show me how to love my wife more and also show me how to love my wife more.

i really feel like i am living a lie in my marrage.

[jim]

help

[jim]

ABOUT TWO WEEK AGO WHILE AT WORK I GOT THE STRAINGEST FEELINGS AND STARTED THINKING ABOUT THIS OLD GIRLFRIEND. REALLY HAVEN'T THAT THAT MUCH ABOUT HER OR THOUGHTS THAT STRONG. I TOLD A CHRISTION BROTHER TO PAY WITH ME ABOUT THIS. I WAS LIKE A WET BLANKET ON ME.

THE NEXT WEEKEND THE WIFE AND I WENT BACK THE OUR OLD CHURCH WHERE HER MOTHER AND DAD STILL GO. I ALWASY ASK ABOUT HER, HER MARRIAGE AND KIDS. HER MOM TOLD ME THAT SHE WAS DEVORSED - ABOUT 4 YRS.

WHEN HER MOM TO ME THIS I TOLK MY SELF (WOW I STILL GOT A CHANCE).

TESE FEELINGS REALLY BLEW ME AWAY. I JUST GOT OUT OF A GREAT CHURCH SERVICE. I REALLY FEEL BAD ABOUT THIS.

ALSO, THAT DAY THAT I FOR NO REASON STARTED THINKING ABOUT HER, HER MOM TOLD ME THAT SHE AND HERE MOM WERE LOOKING A OLD PICTURES OF US.

I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING TO HER BUT DID ASK WHEN AND A WHAT TIME THEY WERE LOOKING AT THEM. IT WAS THE SAME TIME THAT I STARTED THINKING OF HER. I TOLD THE BROTHER THAT PRAYED WITH ME ABOUT THIS. I HOPE THIS IS NOT OF SATIN.

GOD DOES WORK IN HIS OWN TIME AND WAY. I AM JUST ALONG FOR THE RIDE.

I JUST DO NOT WANT TO DO ANYTHING STUPID.

THANKS

[ActualMaureen]

Jim,
I think sometimes we deceive ourselves... we fall in love with the idea of someone, or the idea of "what our life could be like, if only"... But if you had the opportunity to really get to know this woman again... you'll find out she's changed in 30 years, and isn't at all like the girl you knew and loved.

[jim]

THANK YOU VERY MUCH. YOU ARE RIGHT. I KNOW THAT I HAVE CHANGED SENCE HIGH SCHOOL. GOT SAVED. ENJOYING GOING TO CHURCH, BIBLE CONFERENCES AND BIBLE STUDY. ALSO I THANK GOD FOR A MATE THAT LIKES GOING TO. HAVE OLD FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS COMPLAIN THAT WE PUT CHURCH BEFORE FAMILY AND FRIENDS. (DA).

I HOPE THAT THE LORD IS TEACHING ME SOMETHING THROUGH ALL OF THIS AND NOT SATIN TRYING TO DETURE ME. I HAVE NEVER HAD FEELING THIS STRONG AND ALL OF A SUDDEN. I DO NOT KNOW WHY ALL THIS IS HAPPENING. IT IS LIKE RUNNING INTO A BLOCK WALL.


AGAIN THANKS

[veronica]

my dear brother.
first ,i would like to appreciate the fact that you are aware of your problem.
what i would like to tell you is that.......
pray and ask for GOD to be with you
its time we have just finished the sufferings of GOD before easter
remember Jacob being TRIED even by his own wife
Jesus at the mount
you never know maybe its your turn to be tried
my dear your family need you
God will guide you
dont let your family go by the seeming good girl,,,,,or temptation
women ,,,,,remember eve,,and the snake,,,,, and the fruit
brother we love you
your family love you
and of all
THE LORD GOD LOVES YOU
you gave up a lot for the lord and please keep praying ,,,dont give up on the way

your sister veronica